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I’m not doing great right now, to be honest. I’m stressed, I’m tired, and I’m unhappy. I wish I could say I’m just having a bad week, but I know the problem runs deeper than that. This has been going on for months now… for years, even. And so now I have finally come to the conclusion that something needs to change.
But what? What is the thing that needs to change? Is it writing? I’ve been reluctant to talk about these something-must-change feelings with anyone I know in real life because most of the people I know in real life are quick to tell me that writing is the problem.
“You should take a break from writing,” they’ll say. But that’s like telling me to take a break from breathing. “Maybe you should try a different hobby,” they’ll say, as if writing is just a hobby to me. One family member keeps asking me “Have you considered writing smut?” which… actually, that might be one of the few people I know I.R.L. who gets me.
Something must change. Something is going to change. I’m going to make it happen. But first, I’m making two quick promises to myself:
- I will not rush into anything, and…
- I will not sacrifice my writing (or my art).
This post is not me looking for advice. I’m not writing this for my own benefit but rather for the benefit of anyone else who’s having these something-must-change feelings. Don’t get me wrong: these are good feelings to have. These feelings can be the beginning of a new and better life.
But saying that something needs to change does not mean that everything needs to change. Before you do anything rash, before you go upending your whole life, decide for yourself what’s really important to you. Decide for yourself what you can and cannot afford to change (and do not allow other people to decide that for you).
For me, the things I cannot afford to change are my writing and my art. And for you, those things are…
Very tough decisions. It reminds me when I needed to leave my teaching job because of the toxic environment. I couldn’t make myself leave, but God stepped in and made it happen. I’ve never been happier, albeit a bit broker! Things will work out.
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I’m glad things worked out for you. It is tough when jobs and money are involved. But sometimes the money just isn’t worth it.
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Truer words never spoken.
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You definitely don’t want to rush into a change or change everything. Write everything down and see what needs to go.
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Already have, my friend. Something will happen with the #1 and #2 things on that list. My theory right now is that if figure out what to do about those two things, the rest of the list will sort itself out.
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Alex is right. Making the pros/cons list is always helpful. Don’t give up the writing, but maybe there’s a new direction your writing needs.
Julia Quay
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Writing a list is a good option, for sure. Any sort of writing can help. Getting your thoughts down on paper can make those thoughts much easier to deal with.
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Somewhere I saw this (I’m not clever enough to have invented it): How can I know what I think till I read what I wrote?
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I like that. There’s a lot of truth in that.
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You’re a thoughtful person, and I think you’ll find your way with nothing more from me than this wish: Good luck.
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Thank you, friend! 🙂
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So much same for me. Music helps a bit. Comfort food. Mindfulness. Hopefully, things will get better with time.
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You know, as hard as the past year was for me, I did start listening to a lot of new music. It does help.
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I feel for you. I’ve been on the cusp of a major change myself for the last 18 months, and for various reasons continue to hold off pulling the trigger.
One mental trick that sometimes works for me, is to consider what my advice would be to another person in the same situation. It might allow you to step outside of the first person perspective. If that advice is different from what you’re thinking from the inside, then scrutinize the possible reasons.
Best of luck.
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That’s a good mental trick. I’ve noticed several times in the last few months, when I was giving advice to other people, that I was being a bit of a hypocrite. Still not sure what I’m going to do next, but I know things can’t stay the way they are. That’s a start, at least.
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I couldn’t give up writing if I tried. That will never change for me, however, I’ve roamed around the genres as the mood stuck. 🙂
Good luck with finding your path. It’s there somewhere.
Anna from elements of emaginette
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Thanks! Yeah, I can’t give it up either. It’s good that you and I know this about ourselves. When you know that one un-changeable fact about yourself, it makes it easier to figure out everything else.
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Those things are my writing and my art. So many people outside of my writing circles such as IWSG have discourage me from wroting and creating because it’s “not practical enough”. Even though most haven’t told me that straight out, they have told me. And so I know exactly what you mean. I just use a slightly different analogy: when someone tells me to get rid of writing/art in my life they’re basically telling me to put a gun to my head and pull the trigger whether they know it or not. Like, screw that! We write and create art because it’s what we were made to do, if you will. We can’t cut something out of are lives because the “moral” majority tells us to because to do so is to destroy our dignity. Don’t listen to them, keep writing and creating; I’m going to.
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Sounds like you and I are in the same boat. These “practical” people we know do mean well, for the most part. I try to keep that in mind. It’s just that they don’t understand what art and writing mean to us. They legitimately don’t get it. And people who don’t understand a situation really shouldn’t be pushing their advice on how to fix it.
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Those decisions are hard. Juggling the demands of work, family, money, and creativity is a complicated process, but I’m sure you’ll find your balance, the one that works best for you and nobody else.
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Thanks! The important thing is to know what really matters to you and what doesn’t. The other decisions are easier once you’ve got those things figured out.
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Sounds like you have at least most of it figured out. Good luck on moving forward and making the necessary changes!
The Warrior Muse
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Thanks! I’m feeling pretty optimistic, probably more so than this post makes it sound.
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Good to hear that you’re looking at positive changes to make in your life and (most important of all) that you’re not listening to those negative voices about your writing and your art. I am sorry that you’re struggling and have struggled so long, but so pleased that you’re now actively seeking the solution. Good luck with it, I hope the struggle is soon behind you.
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Thanks, friend! The struggles aren’t over yet, but I do think I’ve reached a turning point.
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I’m not giving up writing. I know that for sure. Whether I’ll be successful or not, I don’t know, but I’ll always be writing. Why do your friends think writing is the problem. Maybe it’s the solution.
Happy 2022!
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Exactly! Writing is definitely not the problem. Everything that gets in the way of writing… that’s the real problem here.
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I feel like I’m in a similar place and have been taking a step back to assess where I can/need to change. I’ve identified where my focus is going to shift, and writing is a large part of that new direction. Now I just need to follow through and keep going. Blogging and networking is also a big part of this ‘new me’, so I’m glad to have come across you via the IWSG. Thank you!
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I’m glad to hear it! I hope the follow-through goes well. Staying committed to a goal is the real challenge. I know it’s going to be a real challenge for me, at least.
P.S.: Sorry for not responding sooner. The notification somehow slipped through the cracks.
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